As of late I have been taking note of myself in the mirror. Not while I’m naked, because that’s a tad bit scary. No, I’ve been assessing the way I dress.
Years ago when I worked at a bank as a Personal Banker, I dressed well. I wore suits and dresses, most of which helped me support the local dry cleaner. I had an array of shoes with purses to match and…I wore jewelry. Now, not so much. After working for electrical contractors for the last fifteen years my sense of ‘fashion’ and the effort I put into an ‘outfit’ has decreased. Don’t get me wrong, if I have a party or event to attend I’ll pull it together and still get compliments. But the everyday thing has gotten out of control.
I found myself recently saying, “I’ll take a couple of those.”, when my office was ordering new polo shirts with our logo for the guys in the field. Seriously what has happened and how have I become so lazy?
I know part of it is that I hate to shop for clothes. I dislike going to the mall and trying on clothes. It drives me crazy when I find something and then they don’t have it in my size or it just doesn’t fit quite right. Though I usually have good luck at The Gap, unless I hit the mall every other month, my selection is limited. I get frustrated and just go home with a few things to hold me over…and over.
The other reason I don’t dress the way I’d like is money; I honestly would just rather spend it somewhere else. Getting a project done around the house or taking a vacation with my daughter and her family seems money better spent. The vacation we took with them last year in Gatlinburg, or the year prior in Florida only lasted a week each; but the memories for and with my grandchildren are priceless. I would rather spend my time and money on my family.
Example: For my 46th birthday my husband asked my sister-in-law to go shopping with him to pick out a piece of jewelry for me. Before that happened, I told him I really wanted a Wii because it would be something all of us could have fun with…from my mother in her seventies to my toddler granddaughter. I usually don’t ‘ask’ for a particular gift, especially one with a higher price tag, but I knew it would be a gift that keeps on giving.
I like that I’m modest when it comes to spending money on myself and generous with family; however lately I’m feeling the need to be a bit self-centered. It goes against my core but it’s just what’s been going through my head lately. Just thinkin’ out loud. You can agree or give me a spanking…just keep in mind that I do like a nice spankin’.